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[24 Jul 2008|10:12pm] |
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[24 Jul 2008|11:12am] |
Hi guys sorry I've been missing the last few days! I don't really have time to do a full update so I'll go quick.
He's back in my life in a weird way, and for now that's ok. The more we talk the more I'm convinced he actually does have a good side and that scares me.
Anyways, I didn't go to the gym for 4 fucking days and I'm definitely paying for it. Not only am I getting more jiggly by the day but my appetite has been out of control. I finally went yesterday but I still ate wayyy too much, and then I went this morning and haven't eaten yet so I'm at -600 which will definitely change. Needless to say I'm pushing myself farther and farther away from my goal of 110, but I'm back on track now which is good.
I've been making a really strong effort to be more social. It's not easy for me at all especially when plans include eating and drinking, all during my prime workout hours, but being with good friends all the time is probably better for me in the long run anyways.
last but not least my periods are all messed up and I hate it. I spotted earlier this month and figured that was it but now my boobs hurt really freaking bad so I'm thinking I might be PMSing, who knows. That's all, now that I'm re-focused on my body I'll be on often again.
OH YEAH, I have exactly 6 days until my big work event and I think that my old crush will be there. I swear I'm not as boy-crazy as I sound haha, I had real, very strong feelings for this one, for like 6 months. Nothing ever happened and then we stopped talking. I ran into him a few months ago and I was hit so hard with how much I still liked him I actually couldn't breath. So, 6 days to tone up, get a tan, and whiten my teeth. awesome. I'm a loser hahaha. Off to the beach now where I plan on not taking my shorts off.
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[23 Jul 2008|08:20pm] |
Now I get it...
now I realllllly get it.
Damn, do I feel like such a bitch.
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[22 Jul 2008|08:34am] |
Just started listening to High Contrast Recordings Presents Rank 1, and God.. it's astonishing how many jaw-dropping songs there are out there that I haven't heard yet!
My friend Gil has been sending me all these new and amazing cds I've yet to hear, by some pretty amazing DJs (AVB, Tiesto, First State, Solarstone, Rank 1), and I'm just loving every second of it.
Thanks, Gil!
I haven't gotten all the way through this one yet, but I'm thinking that it's gonna be my fave!! O.O<3<3<3
So anyway..
Beach yesterday with Shana was super fun times.. even though we only stayed for an hour and a half.
Then she (or should I say Rob?) treated us to a Red Lobster feast --which I think made both of us convinced we would spontaneously detonate-- but damn was the food delicioussssss, mmmmm =D
Today I'm going to the beach with Andrew once he gets out of school.
Hopefully we'll be able to stay awhile...
I just love being at the beach, it's so relaxing, and so nice to be able to feel the warm sun on your skin when you haven't been able to in 2 years.
I think Thursday at midnight we're gonna go see Step Brothers in Mission Valley; is so, I can't wait for that! Looks hilariousssssss ^_^
Oh, and I still really need to get a job.
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[21 Jul 2008|07:26pm] |
You last like a song
I'm deflated
I am pieces on the wind
Unrelated
I still feel you
Beneath my skin
I am tempted
To throw my senses in
Cos it's easier to fly
Than to face another night
In Southern Sun
And your love is all around
In the air to set me free
-Southern Sun, Paul Oakenfold
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[21 Jul 2008|08:57am] |
First super hero movie that I have EVER enjoyed watching!
Heath Ledger acted brilliantly as the Joker, so much so that it was nearly impossible to even see the actor behind the character.
It was really entertaining and such a blast to watch, I'd even see it again in the theater...
sooooo good.
Anyway, that is all.
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[20 Jul 2008|11:55pm] |
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Rules of PMSing: 1). don't watch Candy 2). don't watch Titanic; and 3). eat lots of double stuffed Oreos.
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[20 Jul 2008|02:16am] |
took too much ephedra => nauseous and jittery, bad idea.
Worth it though, I decided to take a day off from working out so I don't get burnt out and ended up eating lots of carbs. Oh well, my total intake probably wasn't TOO bad, but not great.
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[19 Jul 2008|06:46pm] |
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[19 Jul 2008|03:16am] |
I worked 11:30-4, went to the gym, showered, and went back to work 7-12 am
I had a quick break and I chose to burn 500 calories instead of sit home and rest. I'm really proud! I probably ate 900ish which gives me a net of 400 which I like. My favorite diet pills ever arrived the other day and Im worried I'm using them as a crutch, that ends now. I need it to be mondayyy I do so much better when I'm not working and have the house to myself.
so the boy. he was perfect. I wanted him to be mean so badly, or at least awkward and annoying, but he was none of those things. He seemed genuinely happy to see me, we talked and joked like nothing bad had ever happened between us, and after all of that he apologized. He then proceeded to tell me the reasons why he liked me and midway through realized how corny it was, we made eye contact and just laughed. The most potentially awkward conversation ever was completely fine because of him. and me. and the way we are together. If his reputation wasn't so awful, and if I knew it wouldn't reflect on me so poorly, I might actually let him take me out. Lost cause I guess, at least I can call him a friend because up until tonight there was a month and a half of silence
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[18 Jul 2008|02:28am] |
Why am I so fucking good at self sabotage? I can't even begin to calculate what I ate today. I wish I could be like "oh my god what a crazy binge, my arms just kept reaching for food, I had no control" but that's not what it was at all. My friend was over and we just kept snacking, and then once she left I figured I may as well get rid of my cravings in one day that's already gone to shit instead of letting them linger. It's going to blow seeing myself back past 112 tomorrow
I have to work with him tomorrow. The first person I chose to let my guard down for in years. Nothing happened but I liked him, and I told him. He made me feel perfect and beautiful until I found out he was completely full of shit and pining after my manager. I just hope I stand my ground. Be polite but not inviting, mature but not cold. Can't wait to work 12 hours tomorrow...
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[17 Jul 2008|02:09pm] |
I'm very happy to finally be below 112. I felt legitimately thin this morning. granted my mirror only shows from my hip bones up, but still. My abs looked defined and my arms are getting better. It might be purely psychological haha, I tend to think I look better after seeing proof I've lost weight.
I ate a whole grain tofurkey wrap and some candied pecans then went to the gym. I only burnt 300 cals before I decided to just do weights and go home but that's ok. I'll eat another 500 cals or so and call it a day.
oh yeah, today was supposed to be my day off in terms of working out, but I'm too scared! I don't want to ruin my progress. Oh well, it was a light workout anyways
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[17 Jul 2008|10:00am] |
111.6
yeahhhhhh baby!
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